Thankful

This is my first post of my new blog. I've decided to abandon my old one since it's like freaking dead. I just wanna say out my thoughts. This is gonna be a freaking long post.

I'm gonna dedicate my first post to the people whom I'm thankful for all these years.

List of people:
#1 My parents
#2 My Brother
#3 Shan Shan
#4 Wei Ling
#5 Evelyn
#6 Yi Shuen
#7 Yi Xuan
#8 Maggie
#9 Teachers

#1 My Parents
I'm so grateful for them cos they've raised me up, brought me up to who I am today. I may not be good in my studies and all, but I'm glad they did their duties as a parent. They taught me the right things and guided me on the right path. They gave me a home to live in, they fed me when I'm hungry, correct me my mistakes, bought things that I want and need. There maybe a whole lot of things that I may not rmb, but I am indeed grateful for them. There aren't enough words to describe how a child is grateful or how much they love their parents. I may not be a good child, doing my duties, eg. getting good grades in school, helping out with house chores and many more, but I will try my best to.

#2 My Brother
I just wanna say a quick thanks to him. Thank you for giving in to me and allowing me to do things that I want. Thank you for your concern at times and love you okay.

#3 Shan Shan
I just wanna thank her for being there for me for the past 4 years. I rmb the times when we were so close cos we have a lot of similarities. But things turned out bad for some reason or another. Cos I was emo for 2 years and she went for operation, so yeah. But then, we turned out to stick tgt for 2 years. I'm so thankful that she went all out to be my friend, caring for me, talking to me when I'm bored, cheering me up when I talk about my problems. I feel so happy that she is willing to go all out for me. I am sure that there will be times we will get sick of each other, no doubt about that. I admit it, I'm not sure about you though, but I will get paranoid sometimes and think that you dont like my attitude. I guess I've endured the times I dislike you too. I apologise for not being a great friend, sometimes pissing you off. :X I'm really glad that we dont really have quarrels but maybe pissed/annoyed at each other. But we are fine after a while :) I'm just really scared to lose you, a close friend of mine, that time during dance practice. I'm too timid to take the first step, but it was you who saved our friendship. I enjoyed the times we gossip and motivate each other during classes. Really glad to know you. <3

#4 Wei Ling
I've known you for so many years, 8 years, woah, half of how much we lived. Hmm, you're really quiet since Primary School till now. But sometimes I'm just so happy that you open up and we talk so much. I feel so retard, getting jealous over you and Evelyn, cos I guess I'm scared not having any friends since we came from the same primary school. I finally got over the fact that you, Evelyn, YiShuen and YokeCheng are good friends after Sec 2. I such narrow-minded. :/ I was also so happy to be talking to you whenever there's chinese class! We're like aunties, okay not you, me only, cos I seem to be talking all the time. :X I'm so talkative. Although we've been classmates for so many years, I don't seem to know you very well. Anyway, happy that we're friends. :)

#5 Evelyn
I've hated you during Sec 1 due to the fact that I'm narrow-minded and jealous that you're good friends with Wei Ling. I admit that I criticized you on my blog and I was also being two-sided, trying to be friendly with you and all. I'm just glad that you, on the surface, got along with me, and tried to be friendly with me, though I'm not sure deep down if you still hate me, due to the fact that I told Shan Shan about all those things you dislike about her. My real reason for doing that was because at that time, many ppl dislike her I think, so I feel bad being the only person siding her, so I played along, trying to act like I'm good friends with her but I'm not. Then, I sorted out my thoughts and felt bad for her. Why must I follow everyone? Why should I backstab her? So I sort of 'backstab' you all. :/ REASON: I afraid to lose any friends seeing that I'm making friends with you all once again. So I sort of mix around in both sides, resulting in a conflict that I'm confused. I think it's me who caused Shan Shan, LuLu, Jolene to be distant from us. I guess I'm childish playing all these 'games', risking myself to lose so many friendships. I'm so insecure, that I hai everyone's relationship to be so jiang. :/ I feel super duper bad about it. Anyway, thanks for cheering me up, giving me a hug after SYF results was released. Thank you for talking to me and treating me like friend? :)

#6 Yi Shuen
I rmb when we were in Lower Sec, you were like all quiet (cannot say you emo right :X), now you're like all hyper! I just wanna thank you for talking to me about your problems, although I may not be able to cheer you up in one way or another, but I'm glad you felt better aft talking :) I'm happy to be your listening ear and I thank you for cheering me up when I feel down, so glad to know you <3

#7 Yi Xuan
So happy to know you! Always the one who is all happy, cheerful and positive, trying to make ppl happy by being lame! hehe, I think you're always so scared that I'm about to cry, I always cry, so get used to it, yes I'm a crybaby :( So thankful for you to cheer me up esp during Sec 4! :D

#8 Maggie
You're a special friend, despite being away for many years and being so distant/nvr stay in contact alr, I still am happy that we talk to each other on the phone, talking about boys and stuff. I miss you. You definitely made many good friends although you were worried at first that you would not be well liked in Hong Kong. You still talk to me about the mean classmates and your crush a few years ago, but not any more. It's great knowing you and you probably wont talk to me anymore. I miss the times we were tgt. You have your own life, I have mine, we may not talk but we will exist in our memories. <3

#9 Teachers
I'm so grateful to some of my teachers, always there to console me and give me opinions. Just to name some teachers that I appreciate and like.
Primary 1: Mrs Lye
Primary2: Mrs Nai
Primary 3: Mdm Toh and Mrs Foo
Primary 4: Mrs Grace Koh, Mr Poo
Primary 5 and 6: Mdm Goh, Mr Roslan(RIP) AND MS LOH!!!
Secondary 1 and 2: Mr Ooi, Mdm Lee, Mdm Hamidah, Ms Cheng
Secondary 3 and 4: Mdm Zheng, Ms Tan, MS ZHANG, Mr Tan

Sorry PE teachers, I dont rmb you cos I dont really enjoy them :D, except for the free period and games that we choose on our own. I'm lazy :P

FINALLY, I've reach the end of the freaking long post. Stay tune to the 'Apologies' and 'Hatred/Dislikes' Post

Maybe I'm gonna post the bitch fight and fucking scolding from my mum one day too. This is so interesting.

I'm so bored of rotting at home and not being able to get a job. ARGH. FML. Tata for now.